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Because Bruce Lee said – ‘ Be water, my friend. Empty your mind. Be formless, shapeless, like water. You put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle. You put water in a teapot, and it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow….. or it can crash.’

“BECOMING WATER”

I know I ain’t no Shakespeare nor Marie Curie. No Grammys, Oscars or millions followers. Just me.

SO, WHY SHOULD YOU READ THIS BLOG?

Because I am someone who doesn’t have a role to play or pretend to be something I am not.

Okay, but honestly, being an Asian girl, barely 5’1, with a body not bikini ready, I was labeled ‘too much’ in every way- too loud, too heavy, too complicated.

“LAUGHING THROUGH THE LABELS”

People want you to be their personal comedian all the time, but also be serious about life. And by people, I mean almost every human being in sight. ‘A’ grade was a shield for me through high school, but it only lasted till I entered college.

” LONELINESS OF FITTING IN”

However hard I tried to stay body positive, the past traumas and facing the classic mean-girl energy in college felt like drinking a bitter smoothie everyday. I started losing confidence and gaining weight like the inflation rates. It took me over 2 years to finally find my footing after being diagnosed with depression and OCD. I mean, depression wouldn’t let me out of bed, and OCD wanted me to be a CEO. A girl can’t even catch a break. I was what, 17 at the time.

” HIGH SCHOOL ≠ REAL LIFE”.

Enough of my emotional sob story, because one thing I can proudly and humbly say is that, through thick and thin, I never let any of it define me. I never wept and told anyone to go easy on me because I knew that it was all in my head and only I can stop myself from feeling like sh*t and stop creating monsters in my head.

I have wasted too many moments inside my head. But now? I want to feel every second. I want to live, no matter how unsymmetrical, unfiltered, or unfinished it seems. Because my life is raw, unpredictable, and chaotic. And I am finally okay with that.

” STILL UNFOLDING OR BECOMING ME”

My life was, is, and will be messy- but really, whose life isn’t? After all, it’s life, not an IG story.

” IF YOU’VE EVER FELT TOO MESSY FOR THE WORLD’S EXPECTATIONS- WELCOME HOME.” STICK AROUND.